pain pain and more pain I'm bloody fed up of it, I've struggled with it for so long but over the last few months it's got a lot worse, several times I've been back to my GP and had morphine tablets increased not that it did any good, I knew I had oncologist appointment in the 13th so I struggled on till then in the hope she would help me, the night before the appointment was horrendous the pain was so bad I got no sleep I was just pacing the house and eventually cried myself to sleep! So the day of the appointment I was exhausted, Chris came with me and we didn't have a long wait then we were called in, as soon as the door was closed I broke down, as I explained just how bad the pain was it wasn't something she wanted to hear, she has arranged for the palliative care nurse to come out and see me and fingers crossed get my pain under control, the nurse is coming on Thursday am. also I'm having MRI & CTscan within 2 weeks to see what the tumour is upto but I think we can guess due to all the pain and also my blood results were not very good, it's all such a worry until the results on the 17th November.
Tomorrow is another milestone for me as Adam becomes a teenager, he was only 5 when I was first diagnosed so for me to see him reach 13 is a massive acheivement, here's hoping I get to his 16th and beyond, likewise with Jess as she turns 18 in March. I try to remain positive it's just so hard to when you're in so much pain,
Next update results day....please keep fingers & toes crossed.
Julie xxxxx
