Can't sleep...

It's now 4:10am, I'm catching up with recorded tv,with my leg rested on a hot water bottle waiting for painkillers to take this pain away, why is my pain always worse during the night when I need to sleep? I contacted the hospital on Monday but still no date surgery, she would chase things up for me, still not heard anything so will be phoning up again after the weekend although now I can't see me getting a date in January. It's not been a very good this week woke up at the beginning of the week to news of a internet friend had lost his battle with bowel cancer, last time Tony messaged me was to say he had read my blog and he could relate to my journey, RIP Tony. A few days of hearing the sad news about Tony I woke up to more bad news of yet another sad loss of Hazel, chatted to Hazel many times through twitter and Facebook always there to offer support, it's like a big kick in the stomach every time, so cruel so unfair, when's all this sadness going to stop? Two young woman both whom have young children both bowel cancer 1 who has been given just weeks the other young lady possibly just months if chemo doesn't work , how do you reply to people when they tell you such devastating news?. It's been a stressful week for My husband Chris too, I'm very proud of him. I'm feeling sleepy so will try grab a few hours sleep now. RIP Tony and Hazel, my thoughts very much with their families at this difficult time . Happy weekend folks, smile and be happy! Xx

Lots to look forward to!

It's now 2nd January 2014, was planning on writing yesterday but instead I was in bed all day poorly! Hope you all had a magical christmas and new year, our christmas was quieter than normal but we loved it just spending time together on our own, Jess and Adam got everything they wished for and more, Adam happy with his ps4 and games and Jess mostly money, vouchers, 9 bottles of perfume (hopefully now she will stop using mine!). Chris bought me the most gorgeous eternity ring plus lots more things, I'm very lucky. New Year's Eve we went to my brothers house, we had a lovely evening we didn't stay to see in the new year as my leg once again was giving me grief. I've still not had a date for surgery so on Monday I will chase that up, I want this unwanted growing alien removed from my body ASAP! We've so much to look forward to this year but with surgery looming and not knowing how it will all work out I'm finding it hard to look forward to all the wonderful things we have planned. In March Jess turns 16 wow can't believe she's going to be 16, I'm hoping to take her to Paris for her birthday but until we know when surgery will I can't book it, another big birthday in March my brother turns 40! End of march I'm off to my favourite place Chester for Michelle's hen do, love Chester we go every year for our anniversary. May sees us flying out to Mexico for Andrew and Michelle's wedding. June going to see Dolly Parton with my dear friend Mavis. Another big goal for me is seeing Adam starting high school in September another wow he was only in reception class when I was first diagnosed with cancer. Then it will be nearly christmas again!. Wishing you all a wonderful 2014, cherish everyday. X